April 1, 2014

Today we went back to the OB to get everything checked out. She told me my cervix has not changed at all and that we are in a good place. She did tell me I was still to stay in the bed except to use the restroom and take a shower every other day. We will be a weekly patient for a while, if not the rest of the pregnancy. The good news in that is Jeff does not have to give me a shot!! I think he might have been a little disappointed with that :) So, I guess my weekly excitement will come from going to the OB (never thought that was something to get excited about until now :) I read a great quote by Charles Spurgeon today, he is one of my favorite theologians "A man at peace with God dreads neither the ills of life nor the terrors of death; poverty, persecution, and pain have lost their sting when sin is pardoned. What is there that a man needs to fear when he knows that everything comes from the Father's hand and works his everlasting good?" I needed this reminder today. Fear is something that gets me from time to time. I am a planner and I like to be in control of things. With this bed rest there are a lot of things I worry about. A reduction in income, added doctors bills, if our son will continue to grow and stay in. Then, I feel guilty because I know that God has done so much and he has continued to bless Jeff and I beyond what our minds could ever understand. I was stressing last week about what would happen with my job, well today started a promotion and raise for Jeff that we did not see coming. The extra income on his paycheck will be enough to cover insurance without making an impact on our  monthly budget. Oh, and his extra monthly amount comes out to $333! Why I even worry is beyond me, God is teaching me more and more to trust him in ALL things. There is nothing that we have been given that did not come from his hands and he works these thing for his everlasting good! I am learning to rest in that hope everyday! To Him be the glory!