April 3, 2014

Jeff has been able to work from home the past 3 days and I LOVE that he has been here. I feel more comfortable when I know he is close to me, even if he is downstairs working.This schedule has certainly made my first full week at home a much smoother transition. For the past few weeks I have been studying Timothy during my personal study time. Today I began II Timothy chapter one, and it was MUCH needed. Two of the verses that really stuck out to me were " For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying of my hands. For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." 2 Tim. 1:6-7. I had a really bad dream about our baby last night and woke up early not able to go back to sleep. I began to fear and doubt the outcome of all of this. As I was laying in bed all I knew to do was pray and it was so cool to see how Father gave me instant peace. This journey is defiantly becoming a faith building journey in my life. God has moved in such a mighty way, we praise him, and then here comes my fear. Then it goes on repeat.... God continues to move in a mighty way. we praise him, I begin to have fear. However, scripture is telling me that God did not give me a spirit of fear. I know it is human nature to fear the unknown, but I need to remember Father gives me a spirit of power, love, and self-control. Anything apart from those are not from him. So as you guys are praying for baby Tripp please lift my fear up to the Father. I do believe that Tripp will not come into this world until the day Father has appointed, and whenever that day is it will be for God's glory...... I am REALLY having to learned to rest in that. To God be the glory!