Be Still My Soul

"I have calmed and quieted my soul, like a weaned child with his mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me. O Israel, hope in the LORD from this time forth and forever!" Psalm 131:2-3 As I was reading these verses, I also read Catherine Larson's view of what these verses meant to her when she was facing losing her second son. It has brought me so much encouragement! 

"The picture in this psalm of a weaned child resting on his mother is the picture

of one who knows that his needs will be met, who knows the heart of the one

caring for him, and who can wait in faith. Our souls are calmed and quieted   

when we remember God's promise-- that He works all things together for the 

good of those who love him (Romans 8:28); that He will never leave us nor   

forsake us (Hebrews 13:5); and that though others can be faithless; He cannot

  (2Timothy 2:13.) When we look back and see His faithfulness, we are reminded

that we can look forward and trust His coming grace."

Thinking back over the last 10 weeks, these have been some of the hardest and scariest days of my life! Jeff and I talked (many times through tears) about trusting Father even when it was hard. When I had moments to myself I would sing a part of the song "Blessed be Your Name." I can recall some of words that really spoke to my soul "When I walk through the wilderness blessed be Your Name, you give and take away, but my heart will chose to say blessed be the name of the Lord." As Jeff and I have quieted our souls, we have said if God allows us a lifetime with our son or if he chooses to take him home, He is good, He is in control, and He is trustworthy. While thankfully we are still carrying our sweet baby boy I will be forever grateful for the lessons Father is teaching me during a tough time in life. I am learning to fully trust that in every situation He does good for his children. Now that we are almost out of the "danger zone" I am so excited to meet our son and to tell him throughout his life of the goodness and faithfulness of Father! To him be the glory!